Working Girls
Thursday, August 21st, 2008
I have a lot of girlfriends who don’t work. Most have kids, and they spend their time caring for their family. I think that’s wonderful. I would love to have the option of not working. And this summer I’ve been a little more envious than normal because my friends, well, they’re pretty well off. So they have spent the entire summer traveling to amazing places. They go away for weeks at a time and nearly every weekend. They shop, eat at wonderful restaurants. They find babysitters wherever they go so they can actually do things without kids sometimes. They are lucky. They are so fortunate that I actually have not seen any of them all summer because they’ve been so busy traveling and having fun. How can I not feel a little bit envious? Even if we could keep up with this social circle financially–which we can’t, especially with all these medical bills rolling in–I couldn’t have done anything fun this summer because I’ve been holed up with this broken leg. Days and weeks have gone by where I have not seen another human being except for my husband and kid. Meanwhile I keep getting emails from wonderful places where my girlfriends are, usually ending in ’sent from my blackberry’. So far my only excursion this summer was to RWA conference (and many of you saw how relaxed I looked there. Not.) Fortunately God created lemon drops and the internet. Who needs the Caribbean?
Anyway, I was wondering what I would do if we won the lottery. Would I drop out of writing? I’m lucky because we can squeak by with my writing as a second income. But this is a hard, stressful business, and would I give it up if I had the chance? I could spend more quality time with my kid without always feeling like I should be writing. I could join my friends when they go to the beach, instead of saying no because “I have to write.” What if my time at the computer was spent looking for accommodations for my upcoming trips instead of trying to bleed pages directly from my veins? Doesn’t sound half bad.
But then I realized I could never stop writing, even if I was rich. I might not stress so much on it, but I wouldn’t stop. I’ve never been one of those writers with voices in her head, but I’ve always had lines. Random thoughts, phrases, first sentences. Scenarios. Questions. Things that need to be put on paper, or at least explored. So the answer to my own question is this: if I won the lottery I would not stop writing. I’d just do it on the beach in Thailand. With a nanny, of course.
How about you?


