My last three posts have been all about money or at least related to it. Hmm, on my mind much? What with everything going on in the world right now, it’s personally affecting us. Things are tough at my husband’s job and I’m wishing (yes I can’t believe I’m typing this), I’m wishing I had a job. A full time job that would help contribute to our family income. But I don’t and in our area, it’s next to impossible to find one worth it (meaning paying for child care, gas, etc).

Seeing Amie’s previous post and Miz Anonymous’ explanation as to what was going on in her husband’s head, I feel for the guy. Yeah he shouldn’t have said what he said but he’s stressed out. And I don’t know about anyone else but we’re seriously stressed out in this household as well. These are scary times.

And it makes me feel guilty sometimes that I’m writing and working so hard and I have some good leads but nothing solid. My husband asks how I’m doing and I have a lot of maybes here and there. He’s so supportive and believes in me but sometimes when I talk to him I think he thinks it’s never going to happen for me. I’m never going to get an agent, I’m never going to get past the point I’m at now.

I wonder if that’s my own self-doubt and I’m just reflecting it on him.

I don’t know. I don’t mean to get all deep and depressing on this blog so I guess I need some positive vibes. Life’s all right huh? Seriously I should be thrilled I’m at where I’m at writing-wise. I just wish I had more. Don’t we all want more?

I guess that’s what got this country into it’s problem in the first place. Everyone wanted more.

Yeah I’m so not positive right now. Slap me!