Balance
My last three posts have been all about money or at least related to it. Hmm, on my mind much? What with everything going on in the world right now, it’s personally affecting us. Things are tough at my husband’s job and I’m wishing (yes I can’t believe I’m typing this), I’m wishing I had a job. A full time job that would help contribute to our family income. But I don’t and in our area, it’s next to impossible to find one worth it (meaning paying for child care, gas, etc).
Seeing Amie’s previous post and Miz Anonymous’ explanation as to what was going on in her husband’s head, I feel for the guy. Yeah he shouldn’t have said what he said but he’s stressed out. And I don’t know about anyone else but we’re seriously stressed out in this household as well. These are scary times.
And it makes me feel guilty sometimes that I’m writing and working so hard and I have some good leads but nothing solid. My husband asks how I’m doing and I have a lot of maybes here and there. He’s so supportive and believes in me but sometimes when I talk to him I think he thinks it’s never going to happen for me. I’m never going to get an agent, I’m never going to get past the point I’m at now.
I wonder if that’s my own self-doubt and I’m just reflecting it on him.
I don’t know. I don’t mean to get all deep and depressing on this blog so I guess I need some positive vibes. Life’s all right huh? Seriously I should be thrilled I’m at where I’m at writing-wise. I just wish I had more. Don’t we all want more?
I guess that’s what got this country into it’s problem in the first place. Everyone wanted more.
Yeah I’m so not positive right now. Slap me!
October 15th, 2008 at 12:37 am
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October 15th, 2008 at 7:57 am
No, no, no. No slaps. Just *HUGS*.
My own thoughts are our grandparents and parents got through much worse times than this. We, like them, will learn to survive.
I think we’ll also learn, or is that re-learn, what the really important things are. :)
October 15th, 2008 at 8:49 am
This is why I decided to start my little jewelry company. I spend so much money on my dream of getting published, sometimes I feel guilty about it.
October 15th, 2008 at 2:43 pm
Thanks for the slap Rob I needed it.
I hope we re-learn what our priorities are - and I’m saying that as everyone in the country. I’m already starting to realize it myself.
Kristen I wish I was crafty! The jewelry shop is a great idea and a wonderful creative outlet. I wish you much success.
October 16th, 2008 at 12:39 am
You know, we’ve all been there. And just think, there are other authors thinking… ‘If I could just sell to Samhain/EC I’d be fine!’ there’s always going to be a next level we want to get to. I think you’re doing great and seriously, it’s just the economy and times that are making us doubt ourselves and our dream. You’re not alone. Big hugs, Karen! You rock. I know how frustrating and disheartening it can be!
October 16th, 2008 at 12:01 pm
Thanks Shelli. You always say the nicest things. Luves you.
October 16th, 2008 at 12:02 pm
I totally understand, Karen. I promise it will happen for you. But don’t forget that you have already had so many successes, and you’re up for two awards right now! See, if I lived closer, I’d take you out for cocktails right now. Even though it’s only 9 in the morning. Yeah, that’s right. We’re writers, we can do it.